Single mom

As of this morning, I am a single mom for the next 18 days (or so, I haven't really count). And you know how these things never come alone, I have my busiest week this year. And, while cooking dinner, I have ruined my favorite pan... Well, not my best day this month, let just say...I should get over it, though...

My integrative problem this week is on cardiology. I am pretty sure by now I won't be a cardiologist. Really not my favorite subject. My motivation is not there. So, it takes me longer to get through the material, while I have less time to do it because of the gazillion of other activities. I'll survive I suppose, but I won't be as ready as I like to be.

A month after starting this phase, I have to say I find it much easier than the system units. The problems are more applied, more clinical. We have more clinical competency activities as well. We don't have as much new material, just more integration of all the stuff we saw before. And it is thrilling to see that we are becoming baby doctors slowly but surely... In about three months, we're gonna be clerk and I even believe we are gonna be good clerks (well, good baby clerks ;-))

While I am on it, I got the track I wanted for clerkship, my first choice. Which didn't really made me step with joy. I don't know, I felt like any track would have been ok at some point. I would have made it work anyway. And we negotiated our local rotation, so now I know part of my clekship. Of the 15 months clerkship before LMCC (medical license in Canada), 6 are confirmed being home, and 4 will be for sure away. I succeeded in being home for September, to help husband with start of school next year (weird to plan for next year return to school while still in September, right?). Otherwise, I have tried to separate time I am away with time being home. My endocrinology elective is almost confirmed, but my plans with the rhumatologist didn't worked out. I am trying to work on something else an hour away on anesthesiologist and chronic pain this week, and if it doesn't work, I'll go with the lottery. There is some very interesting local choices there too, so it might not be so hard. Overall, I am still nervous for the lottery of obligatory rotation next week. My plans were to do more difficult rotation away, so less effect on the family if you are not there anyway. But, then, looking into all of it, even if I do these rotation away, there is slight chances I could do the other ones here (because there is not many spots here, and they are very coveted, since we do not have a lot of residents. Sometimes, you are alone with the attending. Therefore, the exposure is fantastic). I'll know in less than 10 days... To be continued...