Blues

Tonight, I feel blue... In less than 48 hours, I have to leave my home for a month of respirology at the main campus. I really enjoyed this month in psychiatry, which was kind of a surprise. The first week has been like an adjustment disorder, because the patients are very different. In the end, I enjoyed it much more than I thought I would... To be clear, not that I would do that of my whole life, because it is very draining emotionally. Since these patients represent at least 20% of family practice, I believe I can deal with that...

One of the big thing about leaving is I don't want to leave the only member of my family that is still here, my de-motivator in chief...

Oh, he's not going to be in a bad situation. He is going to live for a month with a very good friend of mine who loves cat. He will be spoiled as much as he deserves. But still, he is the only family I had in the last month, and leaving him behind is very difficult.

I begin to feel my husband and Princess's absence. I miss them as much as it is possible. I've never been separated from them for that long before and it is taking a toll on my mood. At this point, I don't think they will be back home before mid-June. Even though I really like this rotation, it seems never-ending, not because I don't have the motivation, but because I miss them too much.

On top of it, I need to prepare the house and the cottage for this month absence. It's nothing major, but when you feel depressed, everything look like a big mountain... (ok, you see, I have a very small tendency to exaggerate things... I don't feel that bad, just a little less smily than usual... I suppose this is my histrionic side :-) )

This weekend, I'll see my best friends in Montreal, I'll eat kabab (Yesssss!) and I'm going to the wedding of a very good friend, wearing a brand new dress. Not so bad after all!