Who I am

I was never the cool chick, even in high school. Therefore, you can understand that when I first went to university, my friends were not the cool chicks either (sorry if you thought you were!). Among them was someone I considered a very important person at that time... She was 42 when we graduated. Same age I will be when I graduate from this. 

Where is this discussion coming from? Well, my birthday was last week, and it made me think about her. We lost contact a few years after graduating. Her kids were quite older at that time than mine today. (Well, actually, her kids were 2 to 3 years younger than me, when I think about it). 

For me, she was my friend and part of my life. The fact that she was twice my age didn't mean anything different for me. But today, I have a different perspective, right? I can understand that it could have mean something different for her.  I would love to find her and have a discussion about all this. Because today, I have a different perspective on the person I was back then. The difficulties I face is not on the day to day... but it is in the day to day perspective... The cultural difference is huge! Think about it... I was in university the year they were born. To paraphrase Icona Pop, I am from the seventhy's but they're 90's kids... I live through the first Star Wars movies, Indiana Jones and E.T. (just to name a few, but there is much more than that, you can figure) We have major cultural differences. Sometimes I have to remind myself that they weren't born yet when this or that happened (you can imagine the fall of the Berlin Wall, Challenger space shuttle explosion or USSR)... It change your perspective on things when you were there versus stuff that happened before you were born. They don't know life without internet... Internet didn't exist in the way it does today when I was in university... It changed the society... They didn't experienced the world before that. 

You know what? I might not be 20 anymore, but I am very comfortable with who I have become and with my life as of today. I am very lucky to be where I am, with the people around me who love me enough to follow me in this crazy project of mine.  I don't have regrets about being back in school at this time. I wouldn't want to be back in my twenties. Sure, it is not easy everyday... but my experiences made me who I am, and I think I had a fantastic life before medicine. It will help me to have perspective as physician. Well, I certainly hope so anyway...